My Life Of Integrity

When I read the book of Job I sometimes ask myself, what does it takes to become blameless and upright? After plowing through my mind with such questions I wonder could I be blameless and upright? Do I love anything more than God? Job’s faith and wealth didn’t impress me more than his acceptance to his lost.Photo

I once lost everything I worked for; my home, my career, my marriage and my hope. Trust me, you never want to lose hope. Although many people get their sense of worth from their possessions, the benefits from living a life of integrity helps you come to know God and yourselves is a new and intimate way.

The first questions I asked myself after my devastating lost was, “Why me?”

I was hungry for understanding but starving for common sense. Integrity is a passion to please God regardless what’s taking place in your life. I was to focus on the things I had lost. Common sense should had told me, when it’s over it’s over.

See, integrity is acting on biblical principles regardless of your circumstances. A person with integrity has nothing to lose but his integrity. He has the gift to see past today devastations and into tomorrow’s celebrations. I long for integrity.

Putting much stock in my possessions wasn’t a good idea because when I lost everything I also lost my identity and my self-worth. God cares about our suffering and his purpose for allowing it, is so we can draw closer to him and that’s exactly what I did.

My hopelessness posed a great challenge for me because I never been in this circumstance before. But it was this hopelessness, I now see as a gift, that caused me to surrender to God. The challenge to face my realities I knew I would need help. I was tire of fighting.

First I was honest with myself by telling myself the truth about my role in losing everything, then I learned to keep my mind quiet so I could hear God speak to me. Integrity requires constant self-examination.

It’s alright for us to have fears and doubts because God understands our emotions but we don’t always have to understand God’s actions. We just have to trust Him.

To become blameless and upright it takes overcoming our trails by trusting God. Job lost his health, his children and the support of his wife but he never lost his trust in God. He never lost his integrity.

Don’t be conformed to this world and get your self-worth from what you own, like your home, your car, or your wealth. But live a life of integrity by seeing yourself as God see you, more than possessions. We can lose things but God’s love can never be taken away from us.

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The Chaser, His Blood

It have been a long time since I had a drink of liquor and when I did drink back in the days, I wasn’t to fond of having a chaser after worth. I viewed it as being soft and as something girls and college students do.

The only thing I was chasing my liquor  with was another glass of liquor. But that when I was full of pride and living in the world and of the world.

Today I live in the world but not of the world. I don’t just reads God’s Word then do what I want to do. I humble myself and eat His Word. And I find it not only being healthy for me but it have a nice taste too. “Son of man, eat this scroll I am giving you and fill your stomach with it.” So I ate it, and it tasted as sweet as honey in my mouth (Ezekiel 3:3). 

Now just because something taste good don’t mean it will be easy to swallow and God’s Word is no different. Many Christians taste it and even chew on it but Jesus want us to swallow His Word and get full off it.

In my last post I offended some readers, just like Jesus did, when I talked about eating Jesus’ flesh. Then the people began arguing with each other about what he meant. “How can this man give us his flesh to eat?” (John 6:52)  I explained when we eat Jesus’s flesh we are applying His Word in all area of our lives. For example, while driving our cars and someone think it’s a good idea to cut us off we are to try our best to practice self-control. Eating His flesh is the action part of following Jesus.

In this post I will talk about chasing His flesh down by drinking His blood. Drinking Jesus’ blood is when we look inside ourselves and confess our faults and shortcoming. It’s when we allow Jesus to shine His light on those dark areas of our spirit and accept the truth about what we find. For my flesh is the true food, and my blood is the true drink ( John 6:55). The only way God can remove our sins is when we be honest with ourselves.

If you’re anything like me you’re an expert at self-deception, rationalizing, justifying and denial. All those are lies and we know who the father of lies is. But when we tell our self the truth, we allow God inside us where His blood can do some spiritual cleaning and remove all those dirty white lies and wash away our sins.

The truth (His blood) then flows deep into our souls looking for lies we told ourselves for years. Lies that go far back as our childhood. God no longer want us to hide from our past. His blood will heal our deepest embedded wounds and it will show our secrets we though we would never tell. The truth truly sets us free. Free from our self and our past.

When we drink Jesus’ blood we make Him the core of our being, spiritually, mentally and physically and feed our soul with the spiritual reality of His Word and His blood. We make Jesus and His teaching our life.

Christians are hungry and thirsty after God but many are eating baby food, microwave food and junk food. Drinking cool-aid and never quenching their thirst.

It’s time for Christians to eat some meat and potatoes. Things that will stick to our ribs and our soul. It’s time for us to eat Jesus’ flesh and drink Jesus’ blood because there’s nothing like the blood of Jesus.



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Man Does Not Live On Bread Alone, So Eat Jesus’ Flesh

I love to gather up my family and take them out for a nice dinner at Red Lobster for two reasons, quality time and to eat their bread!  I love when it comes out nice and warm it taste that much better. The wife just looks at me shaking her head in disbelief as I funnel down one after another. She says I’m falling into their trap of eating lots of their bread so my main meal will not only look bigger when it comes out, but making it impossible to eat it all.

And she’s always right as I sit there full, staring at my plate after taking just two bites.

Just like eating Red Lobster’s bread appears to make me satisfied, we need be careful of not getting full off of unhealthy spiritual bread before the main meal, Jesus Christ, comes back.

We are what we eat. For us to live we must eat the bread of life. I tell you the truth, he who believe has everlasting life. I am the bread of life (John 6:47-48).

There was a time I didn’t believe in Jesus. I believed as long as I stayed out of trouble and did the right thing by being kind to people, I would be alright. My spirit was hungry for Him but self-deception gave me an “easy to butter bread” kind of spirit. This kept me in my comfort zone, that way, I could still do what I wanted to do without committing to Him or feeling guilty.

Like there are different kinds of breads there are also different kinds of spirits.

For instance, some days I would have a crusty bread kind of spirit. When I let my environment influence my thinking. Like listening to music that made me think I’m tough by feeding my falsely inflated ego. With this kind of spirit I was never stable. One minute I was talking world peace the next I was down for my hood ready to fight.

Then there were days I had a moldy bread spirit. A moody spirit that kept people away. When I was in my moldy bread spirit all my friends would say it’s that time of the month for me. I spent a lot of time isolating with this kind of spirit. Like when you find moldy bread sitting far back in the corner of your bread box.

My fresh bread spirit was my self-righteous spirit. A spirit that comes from when I use to read God’s Word then look down on others. Nicole hated when I was in my fresh bread spirit. She said I walked differently, chew my gum differently, and even carry my Bible differently. On those days she would go to the second Church service. She said there wasn’t enough room in the car for me, her and my Halo. Anyway..

Jesus wants us to live with an all natural bread spirit which can only come from God’s Word. Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God (Matthew 4:4). 

When we read God’s Word it satisfies the deepest hungers of our soul just like when I’m at Red Lobster the bread satisfies my hunger. BUT JESUS WANTS US TO EAT HIS FLESH!  He wants us to get full by eating all the main meal which is Him! “I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world (John 6:51).”

So how do we eat Jesus’ flesh?


When we apply His Word to our life we begin to transform. Practicing His Word eats away at our flesh and we become like Him. We become more spiritual.

In the natural we have a glow that people can see. This glow is the light of Jesus. It attracts people to us and make them want what we have. But in the spiritual realm when they look at us they see Jesus Himself.

That’s why the devil and his demons always tempting us because they can see us becoming like Jesus. They seldom temp Christians who just read God’s Word because those people aren’t trying to change. The devil go after Christians who practice God’s Word because those are the ones making a difference in this fallen world.

Everyday we must consciously choose to take a bite out of Jesus’ flesh by applying His Word into our life. Like my wife said we must leave some bread alone because it’s a set up to get us full so we don’t have room for the main meal, Jesus.

Jesus knows that it’s hard for us to practice what He says and His flesh is hard to swallow. That’s why my next article we be on how to chase His flesh down by drinking His blood.  Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day. For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink (John 6:54-55).






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