God Has An Agenda

ec004de4ff8c543b78369ba301a053d9 (2)“Vernon! Vernon! Vernon! If I were to react to life in the way that you react to it you would think that I do not love you.” God said one morning during my prayer and meditation.

“Father I do love you!” I protested. “I love you with all my heart, my mind and my soul.”

“If that is true son why don’t you trust me?” God asked. “If you love Me why do you believe everything your mind and the devil tells you?”

I sat quietly listening to God speak unable to answer Him.

“Vernon I love you so much I sent My only Son to die on the cross for you because I wanted a personal relationship with you. I could not imagine going through eternity without you so I made up a plan, and My Son was willing to execute that plan.”

“He had a choice. Jesus didn’t have to do it. He could have refused to die for you but He didn’t because He desire for you to have freedom. Freedom from self. Oh how we rejoiced in heaven when you believed and received My plan of redemption and made My Son, Jesus, the Lord of your life. You didn’t have to do it, you also had a choice.”

At that moment I closed my eyes and breath deeply. God’s peace was in me. I could feel His peace flowing through every cell in my body. I knew He was with me. I felt loved.

“Vernon when you wake in the morning first thing you do is acknowledge my presence by saying, ‘Good morning Lord. Thank you for this beautiful day.’ That I’m proud of. Then you pull out your bible and start studying My Word. That I’m also proud of. But reading My Word does not make you a doer of My Word.”

“See child you also have an agenda: YOU WANT TO CONTROL YOUR LIFE.”

“Then when life becomes challenging you get frustrated wanting to run from the situation. You quickly forget that it is My power that makes things happen. My power and your willingness. But before I can ever use My power within you, you need the willingness to allow Me. You have to have faith in Me.”

“I know that you don’t immediately lose all of your old habits of the flesh, but Vernon I want you to learn to trust Me when life becomes complicated. You have everything within you to move mountains because that moment you became My child you received My power.”

“My agenda for you Vernon is for you to learn to die to self moment to moment not just daily then I will be able to teach you how to love the way I love; unconditionally.” God said in love.













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Who Told You That?


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That is why they must eat the bitter fruit of living their own way. They must experience the full terror of the path they have chosen. (Proverbs 1:31)

In the beginning my mind already existed. He was with me and he was me. He created everything that is. Nothing exists that he didn’t make. He was God.

He said let there be light so I made everything about me. He said my feeling is the compass that guides me and the foundation I should stand on. I developed a deep working relationship with my emotions. Whatever I felt was truth. He saw that I was good.

When I felt uncomfortable he taught me how to depend on him by escaping into the past or future. I felt at peace. He said I’m made in the image of him, so I can think for myself and I don’t need others telling me what to do. That cause me to want to follow his plan for my life. He saw that I was good.

He taught me to never forget and to always keep score of hurts and offenses. He instructed me to withdraw and turn away from people who have hurt me. I spent years alone avoiding people and focusing on differences. I isolated. He saw that I was good.

The only responsible for me is me so stay self-focus he would say.

I learned every successful story I have is because of the work I’ve done and because of my intelligence. My godly mind taught me how being proud of myself and having faith in myself is expression of love. I always acted with the best interest of self in mind and became critical of others. No one could live up to my high expectations. My mind liked what I had become. He saw that I was good.

Then the storms of reality came in from all directions tearing down my self-made world and making me aware of the world around me. Other people need and want shown to me. I tried hard to understand what was happening but it made no sense. I denied it. Denying reality was working. My mind was proud I had discovered it. He saw that I was good.

Denying reality finally stop working and fear set in. I surrendered my life to fear always frightened that reality would show up again. Self-pity, anger, and guilt consumed me. I slowly began to lose hope.

With all the intelligence and knowledge my mind had he couldn’t figure out reality. My god, my mind, abandoned me. The only thing left for me to do was face the one who made reality; GOD.

I told God I was staying out of trouble and I had never hurt anyone. There is nothing wrong with having self-confidence. I confessed I didn’t like when people hurt me and I felt better staying away from them. But now look at my life God I have no friends all because I’m told to live for myself.

Then God asked me, “Vernon, who told you that?”







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A New Life From The Ashes of Deceit

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To manage your own life is all you ever wanted. A peace of mind and heart isn’t too far-fetched as long as you’re in control. But when things don’t go your way you manipulate people and situations wanting desperately for control again so you can experience illusion of peace. Does this sound familiar?

No one promised us that everything would always go our way but that’s what we believe when we are spiritually unmanageable. Spiritually unmanageable is when we develop an unhealthy and untrue belief system about ourselves and the world, making reality unbearable. Whatever we believe is our reality whether it’s based in truth or lie.

Growing in Christ is a process of removing lies and replacing them with truth. It’s a war in our mind, heart and conscience battling for authority.

So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of their ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. (Ephesians 4:17-18)

Futility thinking is useless thinking. A “me first” thinking process that’s always trying to figure out reality. Reality isn’t for figuring out its for accepting and living.

When a person is closed-minded he becomes darkened in his understanding. No light can get in not even the Light of God. No matter how many times he hear about Christ and The Good News, he will remain separated from the new life in God because of his harden heart. Life makes no sense to a person with a darkened and closed mind.


You, however, did not come to know Christ that way. Surely you heard of him and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. (Ephesians 4:20-24)

What make children of light different? They learned to study God’s Word and reexamine their life in the light of WHAT IS TRUE WITHIN. They reevaluate their beliefs about EVERYTHING and became willing, with the help of the Holy Spirit, to not practice those untrue beliefs. That’s how you go about “putting off” and “putting on”. In the past they measure truth against whatever felt right.

The truth about self takes time to admit and more time to stop the old behaviors and to start practicing new ones.

It’s time we stop deceiving ourselves and let the Light of God shine bright in areas of our beliefs. We can have a complete transformation of our life when we allow God’s Word (The Truth) to be the ultimate authority of it. Because His Word can cleanses our minds, transform our thinking, and give us a new attitude and a new life.

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