The Things I’ll Do For A Reblog.

images (6)One thing God had taught me is how to take suggestions whether it felt comfortable or uncomfortable. Most times when God suggest things it feels uncomfortable because most of the times I’m not ready. I don’t like feeling uncomfortable and change always made me feel that way.

But sometimes we have to do things simply because He said do it. He knows I always wanted to reblog but I couldn’t figure it out so I never gave it must thought after that. But recently He suggested I leave WordPress.org and join WordPress.com.  Many people have asked me where is my reblog button. I learned the only way I can get one on my blog is to leave WordPress.org which I wasn’t too willing to do.

Another thing God have taught me was to tell the truth and the truth is I want to reblog and be reblogged. But the fear of the unknown had me second guessing what I know I heard the spirit telling me. Although I had fear I started a new blog with WordPress.com anyway. Come follow me on my new Self Reflection blog and I will follow you back. I’m about to go do my first reblog now.

What Is It That Is Holding You Back?

8ba0d797f9e4d747f0613a580ce6fadc (2)We hear how our faith looks at situations through God’s eyes and not our limited understanding. And it’s clear we are to love our enemies and not seek revenge or try to solve our problems ourselves. But there’s something that stops God’s principles from working in our lives that we don’t hear much about and that’s the inability to receive.

Learning to receive was an area that needed correcting in my life. I wanted to give, forgive, and love but my inability to receive these principles stunted my ministries in these areas. God have sent people to give me seeds to sow, but I never received them so I had none to sow.

Because I have not sown I have not reaped. It took me a long time to understand that and what I’m about to say next. The Holy Spirit made it clear to me it was because I HAVE NEVER REAPED; I HAVE NOT HAD ANYTHING TO SOW.

I know that sounds confusing so let me put it this way. I always believed in God and His Word but my faith didn’t grow when I believed only when I received it in my spirit.

For instance, It was hard for me to forgive others. Why? Because on a spiritual level I had never received forgiveness from God, either directly from Him or from Him working through others.

It was the same with love. It’s impossible to know God and don’t want to love others because GOD IS LOVE.

But because I hadn’t received God’s love I didn’t love myself spiritual. Loving myself spiritually have taught me it’s okay being human. It’s okay to make mistakes. I can stop being so critical of myself.

When I started loving myself I accepted myself: the good, the bad and the indifference. The same way God loves me. Then and only then I began to love others.

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. (Mark 11:24)

When I became vulnerable and risk sharing myself with God and others– my fears, my securities, my innermost thoughts– I was able to receive the seeds God wanted me to sow.  Love, forgiveness and generosity I began to reap.

Ask yourself what is it that is holding you back? Answer it honestly not because you need to know what is holding you back, but because you need to confess what is holding you back. Confession leads to receiving.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Love and Hate (Writing 101:Point of View)

imagesCARY2AB2In two weeks Kevin Reed will attend the University of Dayton. The highly recruited basketball star have offers from Louisville, Kentucky and Cincinnati, but choose to take his skills up I-75 to Dayton where he spent most of his childhood being raised by his grandmother. He parked his car at Ault Park then called Kristen on his cell. She answered on the first ring.

“Yes darling.”

“Hey you.”

“And where are you Mr. I will be there in fifteen minutes?”

“Sorry I’m just pulling up and you?”

“I’m standing at the top stairs of the pavilion.”

“I take it you had no problem finding it,” Kevin said observing the landscape walking toward the pavilion.

“Thanks to Google no I didn’t. I can see you now come on up.”

Kristen had dated star athletes before and she understood that could mean a lot of trouble. But instinctively she felt Kevin was different. She just didn’t know what it was.

When Kevin climbed to the top of the stairs they embarrassed with a hug and a kiss. This was their second time meeting in public. Kevin didn’t like the stares they were getting when they were together, so he decided to meet his girlfriend at Ault Park where he thought they would be safe from the attention interracial couples get.

They walked hand in hand giggling and discussing how funny it was to them that some people can’t accept their relationship.. As they approached the Rose Garden they notice an old white woman sitting on a bench knitting a small red sweater. They spoke to her as they walked by. The old woman kept her head down knitting.

A few step later Kevin bent over and started crying.

“Baby what’s the matter?’ Kristen asked concerned.

Kevin rub his eyes and said sobbing that the old woman reminded him of his grandmother who recently passed. He said his grandmother loved to knit.

Kristen hugged him tightly and thought deeply. She knew it was something special about him. She always wanted a man who knew how to express his feeling and wasn’t afraid to cry. Kristen hugged Kevin and laid her head on his shoulder as they walked slowly through the Rose Garden.

The old woman finally looked up as they disappeared out her sight and said to herself, “What wrong with these young women today? I wouldn’t be caught dead with a nigger.” Then she put her head back down and continued to knit.

Writing 101:Point of View